Mar. 29th, 2005

ladymandrake: (Default)
adam and eve
tonight you stooped to my level
i am your mangy little whore
now you're trying to find your underwear
and then your socks and then the door
and you're trying to find a reason
why you have to leave
but i know it's 'cuz you think you're adam
and you think i'm eve

you rhapsodize about beauty
and my eyes glaze
everything i love is ugly
i mean really, you would be amazed
just do me a favor
it's the least that you can do
just don't treat me like i am
something that happened to you

i am truly sorry about all this

you put a tiny pin prick
in my big red balloon
and as i slowly start to exhale
that's when you leave the room
i did not design this game
i did not name the stakes
i just happen to like apples
and i am not afraid of snakes

i am truly sorry about all this
i envy you your ignorance
i hear that it's bliss

so i let go the ratio
of things said to thing heard
as i leave you to your garden
and the beauty you preferred
and i wonder what of this
will have meaning for you
when you've left it all behind
i guess i'll even wonder
if you meant it
at the time
ladymandrake: (Default)
thirty two flavors
squint your eyes and look closer
i'm not between you and your ambition
i am a poster girl with no poster
i am thirty-two flavors and then some
and i'm beyond your peripheral vision
so you might want to turn your head
cause someday you're going to get hungry
and eat most of the words you just said

both my parents taught me about good will
and i have done well by their names
just the kindness i've lavished on strangers
is more than i can explain
still there's many who've turned out their porch lights
just so i would think they were not home
and hid in the dark of their windows
till i'd passed and left them alone

and god help you if you are an ugly girl
course too pretty is also your doom
cause everyone harbors a secret hatred
for the prettiest girl in the room
and god help you if you are a phoenix
and you dare to rise up from the ash
a thousand eyes will smolder with jealousy
while you are just flying past

i'm not trying to give my life meaning
by demeaning you
and i would like to state for the record
i did everything that i could do
i'm not saying that i'm a saint
i just don't want to live that way
no, i will never be a saint
but i will always say

squint your eyes and look closer
i'm not between you and your ambition
i am a poster girl with no poster
i am thirty-two flavors and then some
and i'm beyond your peripheral vision
so you might want to turn your head
cause someday you might find you're starving
and eating all of the words you said
ladymandrake: (Default)
origami
i am an all powerful amazon warrior
not just some sniveling girl
so no matter what i think i need
you know i can't possibly
have a need in this world

come and come for that sweet sweetness
i'll be your never ending vending machine
i could never need to be alone
never need to be my own
as much as you need your queen

i know men are delicate
origami creatures
who need women to unfold them
hold them when they cry
but i am tired of being your savior
and i am tired of telling you why

and since when did this me me me
become the be all and end all of me
oh listen to you talk to me
long time love has got to breathe, babe
you got to let it ebb and flow
if you want a ball to bounce
you gotta let it go
just let it go

i know men are delicate
origami creatures
who need women to unfold them
hold them when they cry
but i am tired of being your savior
and i am tired of telling you why
ladymandrake: (Default)
TELL ME ABOUT YOURSELF - The Survey
Name:Tif
Birthday:Aug 15th
Birthplace:Colorado Springs Colorado
Current Location:York PA
Eye Color:Blue
Hair Color:BRIGHT RED
Height:5'3"
Right Handed or Left Handed:Right
Your Heritage:Euromutt
The Shoes You Wore Today:ummmm my pretty lavendar NY shoes my friend allison got me
Your Weakness:poetry, chocolate and men who can sing
Your Fears:heights, failure
Your Perfect Pizza:SUPREME BABY (no anchovies)
Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year:ummm removal of all clutter
Your Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger:LOL
Thoughts First Waking Up:SNOOOOOOOOOOOOOOZE
Your Best Physical Feature:Eyes
Your Bedtime:when I drop off
Your Most Missed Memory:the whole thing lol
Pepsi or Coke:Mountain Dew
MacDonalds or Burger King:Burger King...they have onion rings
Single or Group Dates:Group
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea:Lipton
Chocolate or Vanilla:Chocolate you silly
Cappuccino or Coffee:Cappuchino
Do you Smoke:nope-asthma
Do you Swear:FUCKING RIGHT
Do you Sing:sometimes if the song grips me
Do you Shower Daily:more than once a day usually (bath though)
Have you Been in Love:YES
Do you want to go to College:I am going righ tnow
Do you want to get Married:I'm already married
Do you belive in yourself:VERY much so
Do you get Motion Sickness:from video games..I know I'm weird
Do you think you are Attractive:YES I am a goddess :)
Are you a Health Freak:Hell No
Do you get along with your Parents:My dad yes, my mom sometimes
Do you like Thunderstorms:OMG Yes
Do you play an Instrument:nope
In the past month have you Drank Alcohol:yep
In the past month have you Smoked:no
In the past month have you been on Drugs:no they are BAD..ask mr mackey
In the past month have you gone on a Date:nope
In the past month have you gone to a Mall:yes
In the past month have you eaten a box of Oreos:no
In the past month have you eaten Sushi:yes
In the past month have you been on Stage:no
In the past month have you been Dumped:no but I deemed someone unworthy
In the past month have you gone Skinny Dipping:too damn cold
In the past month have you Stolen Anything:no
Ever been Drunk:OF COURSE
Ever been called a Tease:PROFESSIONALLY BABY
Ever been Beaten up:nope
Ever Shoplifted:nope
How do you want to Die:dramatically standing up for what I believe in
What do you want to be when you Grow Up:An Archeologist
What country would you most like to Visit:Egypt

CREATE YOUR OWN! - or - GET PAID TO TAKE SURVEYS!
ladymandrake: (Default)
Ok so its 12:30 and my house is clean..so now I wait, and wait and wait til they show up...Scott had a dr's appointment this morning, they raised his bp meds so MAYBE his bp will come back into a good range again.

Last night after we collapsed from cleaning at like 2:30 we were laying in bed and he suggested we "snuggle"...I know what that means...hehehehe...we layed there snuggling...and up the hands went to my boobs LOL sorry they are HIS boobies lol...So he was just gently nuzzling my neck and snuggling me and I couldn't take it anymore so I attacked him LOL...tired or not I love sex ehheheheh, ESPECIALLY when its his idea :)

I can feel a cold coming on, I need to take a day and just sleep but who has time for that? lol NOT ME DAMMIT...Now that my house is clean I can prolly do that one day this week...

Tomorrow I meet with Det. Beverage to discuss Nicky's case against Mike...its about damned time...I know they aren't gonna do anything...but to have it filed is important...

Welp I'm gonna go surf the internet for a bit

MORE ANI

Mar. 29th, 2005 01:03 pm
ladymandrake: (Default)
talk to me now
he said ani, you've gotten tough
'cause my tone was curt
yeah, and when i'm approached in a dark alley
i don't lift my skirt
in this city
self-preservation
is a full time occupation
i'm determined
to survive on these shores
i don't avert my eyes anymore
in a man's world
i am a woman by birth
and after nineteen times around i have found
they will stop at nothing once they know what you are worth
talk to me now
i played the powerless
in too many dark scenes
and i was blessed with a birth and a death
and i guess i just want some say in between
don't you understand
in the day to day
in the face to face
i have to act
just as strong as i can
just to preserve a place
where i can be who i am
so if you still know how
talk to me now
ladymandrake: (Default)
out of me

(soft instrumental intro, then rockin')

no no no no no no no no no no no no
no more

it's gonna be sudden
it's gonna be strange
i'm gonna turn on a dime
give you 5 cents change
it's gonna be long
overdue
it's all gonna come out
out of me, on to you

out of me
on to you

one of these days you're gonna push too hard
we'll go on like we've always done
till you go too far
one of these days it's gonna reach the top
then it's gonna start to spill
and it's not gonna stop

out of me
on to you...

no more

some people wear their smile like a disguise
those people who smile a lot watch the eyes
i know cause i'm like that a lot
you think everything's okay
it is till it's not

out of me
on to you...

no more

some people wear their heart up on their sleave
i wear mine underneath my right pant leg strapped to my boot
don't think cause i'm easy i'm naive
don't think i won't pull it out
don't think i won't shoot

out of me
on to you...

no more

most people like to talk a lot
including you
you know there isn't much i have to say
that i wouldn't rather just shut up and do
i'm gonna miss you when you're gone
i'm gonna be torn
just remember that i love you
just remember you were warned

out of me
on to you...

no more
no more.
ladymandrake: (Default)
rush hour
rush hour
and the day's dawning
the rain came
and pushed me under the awning
the puddles grew and threw themselves at me
with every passing car
i'm shielding my guitar
and there were some things that i
did not tell him
there were certain things
he did not need to know
and there were some days
when i did not love him
he didn't understand me
and i don't know why
i didn't go
he said change the channel
i've got problems of my own
i'm so sick of hearing about drugs
and aids
and people without homes
and i said, well,
i'd like to sympathize with that
but if you don't understand
then how can you act
i expected summer to be there in the morning
i woke to the alarm
but she was out of arms reach
sneaking out
on silent thighs
that were spent and sore
from the hot nights that came before
he said i looked for you
i don't know why
i said i was wearing black so you could
see me against the sky
take your big leather boots
and your buckles and your chains
put them on a downtown train
i expected he would be there in the morning
i awoke to the alarm
he was still in arm's reach
but his body was just a disguise
his mind had wandered off long ago
you see in his eyes
love isn't over when the sheets are stained
in my head there remains
so much left to be said
make me laugh, make me cry, enrage me
but just don't try to disengage me

he didn't understand me and
i don't know why i didn't go
he didn't understand me and
he had every chance to know
ladymandrake: (Default)
WELL....We made plans with Carl and Molly tonight (hothippyboy and hotgothywife) for friday night at their house for movies. So I am soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo EXCITED :)

SOOOO then I start looking at the FLOYDFEST website...AND it may be possible for us to go :) We were worried about the cost..THEY HAVE VOLUNTEER opportunities...so I may be able to see ANI for discount or free :) and get to spend 3 days with Carl and Molly...

So...all and all I had a great day :)

kisses

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